I Am Green

The Dollar Store was Awesome.

I almost bought a waterglobe with a leprechaun in it.

A bestial mother fought with a bestial child. I was pulling for the bestial child because she had better lines. It was purely a sympathy of style. If the bestial Mother had understood the virtues and wiles of sarcasm I should have pulled for her. The bestial child hung from her Mother's arm as though she were the heavy grapes of Sullenness and her Mother screamed "Quit it!" and kept smacking air as the agile bestial monkey had somehow mastered the art of retreating backwards without any visible means of propulsion everytime the bestial Mother slapped. It was like watching Jet Li or something. It was like the Dollar Store Matrix.

The Valentine's Day items occupied a large part of the prodigal, spendthrift front of the store but there were very funny St. Patrick's Day items all in that clover green, often plastic with a fake metallic finish, beer mugs and beads and a shot glass that came with a whistle. It was all alcoholic humor basically. There should have been a gag cirrhotic liver.

I was planning on spending about twenty bucks but I ended up spending fifty-five.

I got Lee some of those little hatchet dental floss thingies and a pack for me as well. I know that's terrible as they are all plastic and future landfill forever. I will tell people they are "green" since I'm not lying. They are green plastic.

They had some good bubble bath and that book that's so popular on Goodreads, Dr. Strange and Dr. Norell is it? Maybe I'll read it. They had two hardback copies in mint condition for a buck and not even a price clipping or remainder mark. Lee might want to resell those. Wasn't a first edition (seventh, I checked) but still, should be a five dollar item at least when he gets around to selling things again online in the spring or whenever. Most of the other books sucked.

The fridges are awesome. I just read everything for saturated fat etc. and managed to get a lot of great stuff. Lee loves their Jalapeno Poppers so I grabbed those and got lots of "feel better" food like Chicken Noodle soup and healthy stuff like beans and good stuff like Chile and they get this great potato salad there and well there was lots of good food!

I walked over to the big Giant store because they don't carry milk and I got White Grape juice since Lee loves that. And picked up some lovely salmon. Now if I had a nice apricot demi-glace or something. But I can improvise.

I think I felt spring in the air today. It's not that cold and it just has that spring tang.

Is it wrong to pretend to have a Scottish accent for half an interview and then affect an Australian one for the second half?

I'm joking!

When I got home the mail was here and there was this great Christian junk mail envelope with this weird graphic of a Cross painted yellow and wishing me MORE JOY....MORE GOOD HEALTH and I forget...MORE HOPE or something. There were these little arrows that pointed to different parts of the Cross graphic, which appeared to be taken from one of those online graphics kits.

I like getting junk mail like that. It makes me feel people are wishing good things for all of us. I don't open it and see the part where they ask for money. I throw it away with the good wishes intact.

I told Dru while I was tossing it that I am an agnostic not an atheist. I think it's hard to really maintain an atheist status. I mean I understand the scientific method and all that, and I realize the ethical problems with the universe's design, but if you're just talking about a god or gods as forms of consciousness or a creator of the laws and substance of the universe, it's hard to say it's been disproven. Because who has time to sound the depths of time and space? I surely do not. I have trouble just keeping the mirrors clean in this house. Where do those spots come from. I don't spray when I speak! And then there are those who say "you can't prove a Negative." Well that's circular logic. That's like Anselm with the Ontological Proof; the argument's "proof" is contained in the the framing of the question itself. It's the same with atheists. It is simply unknowable. I would say many believers have a better case logically than the atheists, because many of them have had experiences which confirm to them that a divinity is real. How can an atheist have a "confirming" experience? They don't get what they want? I mean if there were propositions that were agreed upon on what constituted a god (Good Luck! Which one of the thousands are we discussing) then you could begin the argument and deduction process. I agree with Witty and the Unsayable bit. Just shut up. You don't know. I don't know.

But a four year old with a crayon could design a better world than this one, ethically. That's obvious. The child would have the good sense to start with a world where creatures didn't eat one another to survive.

That's nature for you. One big recycling gig.

I don't have any proof but I definitely believe there are many forms of intelligence in the universe, some of them probably embodied as we are, and some of them probably more energy forms.

It just seems intuitionally a truth to me. But I have no proof or experience of such things.

Yet I believe. And the limits of my senses (as much as my language) are the limits of my world.

Kant's idea of the Noumenal world is a big idea.

It's probably not a singularity at all. I believe reality is much more likely multiplicitous and possibly interpenetrating.

We are probably the slime mold of intelligence in some versions of this universe.

Paragon of animals, my ass.

There's no way in hell.